When ?

November 1, 2008

It seems like I brought some of London’s lovely cool weather back with me.

Isn’t the weather just breathtaking these days ? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah I wish it was this lovely all year round, don’t you ?

Well lately I’ve been thinking, when is enough enough? When do you say “that’s it!” and put a stop to something you know needs to end. Like a bad habit, or an inevitable pattern you’ve come to be one with over the years.. When? When it does you no good? What if it really isn’t, but at the back of your head it’s bothering you? I’m rambling? Well yes I know I am… I have reason to… I’m confused. Because, for one that usually makes “right” decisions in life, or should I say what conformity and societal propaganda has taught us to be right, I feel like I am missing a lot on a number of issues concerning my daily life. There are many things I hold back on saying, doing or even taking part in because there is a voice at the back of my head, sounds very much like my mother’s, nagging at me telling me Na’aaaah off limits. When in reality, I think it over and realize yea’aaaaaaaaaah it’s totally right! Till when does one follow rules and regulations set for us at birth due to nationality, I mean blood line and pedigree, when life is passing by at the speed of sound only to leave one still thinking: but I gotta do what I’m taught, I mean told.

Simple things, like smiling to strangers while walking on the street… wait that doesn’t apply here coz no one ever walks on the streets. Hmmm making conversation with the guy ahead of you in the queue at a store, yeah no that’s just being too forward. What about giving a co-worker of the opposite sex a hug,,, aaaaah blasphemy !!

I don’t mean I want to do all those things with every Tom, Dick and Harry, but don’t you sometime wish you could at least have the option to. And better yet don’t you wish that if you did anything of the sort then people around you wouldn’t think you’re making a pass at the guy in the next office just for giving him a pat on the shoulder. Well don’t worry I haven’t been put in such a situation yet, and I stress yet because to err is human and to forgive is divine, I can only imagine the impact if I did… actually kind of funny, in a sad way.

I’ve always wished and wanted simple things like these to be a norm in my daily life… Especially being raised by such social and friendly folks, in a western country… with a western attitude to life, yet a reality check of what they prepared me for here.. But for now I’ll settle for what I got and make the best of it… Especially when in reality we all know that here a lot of these freedoms are abused and will be taken for granted.. It’s all in people’s minds to change the future of this country and frankly I see it going backwards rather than forward… for now I’ll say… Kudos to private space and the best poker faces in the world.


I’m off to D town on a business trip for a week… will catch up with you soon my lovelies :)